Thursday, September 4, 2008

today I feel...

My beautiful daugher and my handsome
son that has to do what ever his sister does,
no matter what it is.

My love and I

I feel like life is turning and turning. Things are good and bad and happy and uncomfortable. Satisfying and at the same time unsatisfying. I am content but not. The wavering options for my emotions are endless. and yet no matter how strange this all seems... I'm really ok. My husband and I are doing GREAT. I think we just had a tiff that all married people seem to have in their lives and it almost went to far. I also know that God used any mental misjudgements to make things in our lives so much better then they ever could have been. I am struggling with my finances and my appartment. I find that this must be the place for all of my negative feelings but when I think about the things that truly matter and make me happy (God, my husband, my children.) I find myself smiling.

There has been no work for a few weeks now and I can't seem to pay anything. I'm tired and fusterated. I have been faithful to the things that God has asked of me and I know that he will not let us go under completely but sometimes I feel that "sneaky snake" as my daughter likes to call him coming in and trying to take over my thoughts of complete faith.

hmm.... to have things simple again. to be a child. so sweet and have no responsibilites in life.

oh well I guess we all have to grow up sometime or another.

Have a blessed day filled with God given moments

p.s. Pray for us. We live right on the coast of North Carolina and Hanna is expected to be here shortly. Also pray that we are not victims of Ike either.

1 comment:

Jamie Martin said...

Glad to hear things are going well with you and your husband, I've been married for 21 years and every once in a while there is a bump in the road. Sorry your finances are causing you grief. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.